Just
A Note To Say I Must Pause For Awhile.
I am not doing well at this time. I have a VA
appointment to up or add to my meds tomorrow and another VA appointment, for
therapy, in February (the first opening that was available). I stopped with my
edit of my resent book, my nightmares have increased and become more intense, I
have headaches every day, I can barely think and cry when I think about it all.
I did not see it coming. I know hindsight I could
look and pick out what I now see as something different, but I know where that
gets you – self-blame. A supervisor (at the recent position I had) decided that
I was a threat to her job, so she used what she personally knew about me (that
I suffer from PTSD, and that a part of my trauma(s) are from combat) and used
that to cut me to the core. To cause the most harm she could possibly think, retraumatize
me and play the game that she was trying to help another veteran. I, of course
did tell her supervisor, what I did not know was the he would keep it under
wrap, lying to me that he had told administration and that they were looking
into it, because he had not documented her prior acts of mental abuse upon
veterans.
I have been a veteran’s advocate for 20+ years, and
now the evil deeds of one has caused me to stop. At this time I cannot even
finish the final edit of my newest book without the racing thoughts, the
shakes, the tears. So for the time being you shall not be hearing from me, as I
try and work through this new betrayal, something that would never have
happened had her supervisor thought enough about the position and other
veterans to write her up and ultimately have her removed.
Miette
